should I work or not

Why is it that I don't want to have a job, but I get depressed when I stay home. I constantly feel guilty for not wanting to slay a dragon every day. When I'm working I feel guilty for not being home and taking care of my family. Also, why is it that I get nothing done when I have nothing but free time?I hope to find balance. At least that's what Opera says with her best life program. If she cant do it with all her money and talent how am I supposed to?