I spent the entire day working on my resume. I neglect the housework and didnt even go swimming. I just couldnt stop. I still conflicted about geting a job. Im just going to put feelers out and see what happens. I feel like such a looser for not managing my day better. Its going to be wedsday and I havnt even started my homework. Now wedsday is a bust.

I wonder how long I can go without doing any shopping ists been 4 days and we are out of bread. Maybe I will make pasta tomarrow. I am going to spend the day outside tomarrow. I will make myself do my homework first. That way I wont be stressed. I should have been nicer to my hubby today. I just got really distracted with my resume.

My son tried to come home early and I told him he couldnt. I would love t o just go pick him up and take him to the movies or somthing. I really miss him alot him be. I cant go get him because my husband will be mad and will sulk for days. Thats because he suposed to be grounded and he got out of it by going to his dads. I hope tomarrow will be a better day.

Facebook I need a job

I just started a face book account after being off the grid for 15 years. I was in an abusive relationship and I have been trying to fly below the radar ever since (I work under an alias). Anyway, I was able to find close friends that I completely let drop out of my life. I requested friendship's from them, and they have accepted. I even called one of them. I am still waiting to speak to 2 or three of them. As I impatiently wait, I am constantly looking at their walls for any glimmer of attention or indication that they want to be my Friend again; Beyond the pleasantries of "you have a nice family' and "we should stay in touch". I have even started pestering my sons friends and putting them on my friends list. I have gone from being a total recluse to this needy attention obsessed freak. I can't sleep or concentrate on my studies. I keep checking my Face book at least every hour or more. I have come to the conclusion that.....wait for it....I need a job!

should I work or not

Why is it that I don't want to have a job, but I get depressed when I stay home. I constantly feel guilty for not wanting to slay a dragon every day. When I'm working I feel guilty for not being home and taking care of my family. Also, why is it that I get nothing done when I have nothing but free time?I hope to find balance. At least that's what Opera says with her best life program. If she cant do it with all her money and talent how am I supposed to?